I am completely filled with emotion as I sit here trying to figure out what I want to say to you. It is so hard to believe that you have been in my life for an entire year. It seems like just yesterday I was bringing you home from the hospital, worrying if I could ever be the mother that you deserved. This last year has truly been the most amazing year of my life. I can honestly say that it has been the first year that I have felt that my life truly had meaning and purpose. The void that I once had in my heart is now filled by love and joy.
Over these last couple of days I have been reflecting on the past. Though my life is now filled by you, it is hard not to think about and remember the journey we embarked on to get you here. While it was one of the most difficult things I have ever had to face, I can tell you that I would do it all over 1000 times if I had to, just to have you in my life.
I know that you won’t ever remember this, but you and I had a talk while you were in my belly. The April before you were born, you tried to come into this world. Although I was excited to meet you, it was much too early for this world to be blessed by your presence. The doctors told me that you may be leaving me to go and fly with the angles. That night, after daddy left the hospital to go home, you and I had a little talk. I told you that I needed you to fight hard to hold on because I needed you in my life. I told you how much I loved you and how I had been waiting for you for a really long time. I told you that I would fight for you and that I would never give up on you. From that moment on, you and I fought as a team. We had a bond that could not be broken. You obviously heard my words and felt my love, as you defied the odds and held on, blessing the world with your life on August 22nd…the happiest day of my life.
From the moment that I first held you in my arms, I could see your personality shine through. It has been incredible to watch your personality continue to develop over this past year. You are the most bright, funny, and entertaining little boy that I have ever known. When you laugh, your eyes sparkle like nothing I have ever seen before. It is almost surreal, like your soul is shining through. It is absolutely angelic.
As we are getting ready to start your second year of life, I can’t help but think of all the amazing days that we have ahead of us. I know that we will be faced with some challenges, but as I have said before, there isn’t anything that we can’t get through. I have known from the moment I met you that you were a fighter. You have a plan and there isn’t anything in this world that is going to get in your way. You continue to amaze me with your strength and determination. Even though you are just a little guy right now, I can tell that there isn’t anything in this world that is going to get in your way.
Giovanni, I want you to know how much I love you. I am honored to be your mom, and I will do everything I can to make sure that I am the mother that you deserve. Thank you, Giovanni, for showing me what love is and how beautiful this world can be.
Love you baby boy!