Monday, May 20, 2013

Two Weeks and Counting!

Two weeks from today I will be in Chicago getting my transabdominal cerclage placed. I know that this is the best thing for me to do but it is definitely bringing up a lot of emotions. I know that Giovanni is here, alive and well, but it makes me think of all the "what ifs."

There is a part of me that is angry and bitter. My former OB/GYN, the one who diagnosed the cancer and removed it, should have been more informative regarding how the surgery would affect my child bearing abilities. Thankfully I had a great team of doctors at the medical center that did everything in their power to keep Giovanni in until he was ready to make his appearance...and a fine jog they did!

I am not looking forward to the actually surgery and recovery, but I am looking forward to this because it makes me feel like I am crossing all my "t's" and dotting all my "i's". By having this done, I know that if we EVER decide to have another baby, my risk of preterm labor due to incompetent cervix will be less than 1%. Yay! I talked to my surgeon today to go over some worries that I am obsessing over last minute details. He assured me that everything will be fine. Since I will be traveling alone he has already told me that he will be calling my husband immediately after surgery to let him know that all is well. He will be keeping me in the hospital for 48 hours as a precaution so this means that I will go directly to the airport from the hospital. I have already arranged for wheelchair service as I will not be in any condition to cart my luggage or my ass through the airport.

One thing I am upset about is that I won't be able to pickup/carry Giovanni when I get home. Giovanni has become quite the snuggle bug lately and wants his mommy to hold him. Hopefully the recovery will go smoothly and I won't be limited for as long as they are telling me. After being away from Giovanni for 3 days that poor kid is going to get smothered!




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