Monday, January 28, 2013

Growing Family, Bigger House

Over the past few months, my husband and I have been talking about the expanding needs of our family. I know that I only have one child, but I am the type of person (umm, OCD) that can't stand clutter, so once Giovanni gets to the age where he is up walking and playing with toys, we are going to have to figure out a way to keep all of his toys confined mainly to one designated room (key word "try"). We were thinking about finishing a section of our basement, which I guess is still a possibility, but I really don't like the idea of having his play area so isolated from the main level of the house. Although my husband doesn't see this as a necessity like I do (go figure), we are talking about possibly putting a while new addition onto the house.

If you can picture it, we were thinking about adding on to the side opposite the garage. My husband thinks that we only need to add a one or a one and a half story addition while I think we should go for the whole shebang and add a two story addition. The one thing that we agree on is that on the first floor we want the "playroom" to be a four season room. If we didn't expand the second story I would like to do a room with an elevated ceiling like this...

If we did expand the second story I would want another bedroom upstairs and also a laundry room as our laundry room is on the first floor and that is a total pain in the ass! Downstairs we could do a room like this but with hardwood instead of tile...


While we decide how, or even if, we want to do this, I was thinking about converting the sitting room which is attached to the master bedroom into a playroom. 

 (sitting area is back behind Tiegan)

The sitting area was actually another bedroom that we decided to open up into our bedroom. Even though we have been in the house for almost 4 years, we have never done anything with it. I would get furniture, probably from PBK, that could be used once we decide where the playroom will permanently be. Until then, all of his toys fit into these cute little storage bins from The Land of Nod. So cute!!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Weight a Minute

Yup, you guessed it. This is yet another post about Giovanni's struggle to gain weight. Last Friday we went back to the pediatrician for his weight check. Yet again, he didn't gain like we had hoped he would. Actually, he only gained 3 ounces in about 3 weeks which made him drop from the 4th percentile down to the 2nd. When I saw the reading on the scale my heart just sank and I had all I could to do to hold back the tears. Even though I know that this isn't my fault, I can't help but feel completely guilty. I really don't understand why we are having such a problem. He has been getting 25oz. of pumped breast milk a day. I had been taking in extra calories (despite my total disgust with a slight weight gain) just to make sure that my milk was nutritious and that I was doing everything possible to help this situation. We even tried uping the amount in each bottle but no matter what we do, he won't take it. If we add in a couple of ounces here and there, he will refuse his night bottle so even though we gave him a couple of extra ounces during the day, he misses out on an entire 5oz bottle so we actually lose a few ounces. And how do I fix this? Am I supposed to shove formula down his throat and make him eat it?? The other issue that I think is contributing to this problem is that he is still throwing up a lot despite being on the maximum dose of Prevacid.

The pediatrician said it was time for him to go see a specialist. She is sending us to a Gastroenterologist at the medical center. It is kind of funny, but the doctor that he is seeing there is the same doctor who figured out what was wrong with me and found a cardiothroacic surgeon to fix me as my problem required major surgery (they cracked my chest open) but this was 17 years ago so I can only imagine how old he must be now! We are scheduled for February 12th but the have us on a cancellation list to try and get us in earlier. For the time being the pediatrician has decided that we need to give him one bottle of fortified formula a day. I was so upset when I heard this but I know it is the best thing for him right now as he needs all the calories he can get. At night we are using 3 scoops of an organic formula and adding it to 5 ounces of water. He is tolerating it quite well despite not being used to formula. I am not against formula use, it just isn't something that I have chosen for my son. Some of the ingredients are a bit scary. Corn syrup solids is the first ingredient listed on most formulas and that just doesn't seem right to give an infant. The Similac Organic, I have to say isn't all that bad and if I have to give formula, I feel a bit better about it using the organic. I am hoping that this will help and that we are not giving it to him for no reason. The more calories the better! Hopefully the specialist will have some insight on what is going on so that he can start growing like he should be.     

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Future Pacing

My husband and I have been talking a lot about the future of our family in regards to family size. We have not made any concrete decisions, but we want to keep our options open. Over the past couple of months we have been talking about it here and there, but it really hit last week when we received the bill for the yearly storage fee for our six remaining frozen embryos. We are by no means ready to have another child, but we aren't ready to say that our family is complete either. The one thing that we do know is that the only thing that prevented Giovanni from coming out was the scar tissue from when I had the cancer removed. If it wasn't for that, there is no doubt that we would have lost him when I went into labor at 23 weeks (a blessing in disguise!) Since I delivered him vaginally, the scar tissue has been broken up and offers no safeguard with a future pregnancy. Despite not knowing whether we want to expand our family, sometimes accidents happen and it would be absolutely awful if I accidentally got pregnant knowing that it would be a death sentence for the baby because of my cervical insufficiency.

After much discussion we have decided to move forward with the TAC. I am going between two surgeons for the surgery; Dr. Arthur Haney in Chicago, and Dr. George Davis near Philadelphia. I have contacted both physicians and will be consulting with both. My initial consultation with Dr. Haney is set for February 1st. I am still waiting to hear back from Dr. Davis for a consultation date. Although going to Dr. Davis would be more convenient as I could drive there with my husband, I am still leaning towards going with Dr. Haney as he was very helpful during this last pregnancy even though he wasn't able to treat me surgically. The issues are that I would have to fly out there for the surgery, fly home with a fresh incision, and my husband would not be able to go with me as he refuses to fly.

From what I understand, the procedure is pretty straightforward. I would fly out the day before the procedure for pre-op, stay overnight in the hospital after the procedure, and they fly home the day after discharge. Since the incision would be the same as a c-section scar, I would be out of work for up to 2 weeks (dependent on how I feel, could go back earlier if able). Once the TAC is placed, it is there for good and has no implications on future fertility treatments. The only downfall (if you want to call it that) is that I would require a c-section for future pregnancies and if you remember the nightmare that I went through with this last delivery (here) I actually see this as a positive thing!!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Changing Things Up

Over the pat few months this blog has gone from being very active to being rather blah. I often find myself at a loss with what to talk about. Yes, I could talk about Giovanni until I am blue in the face, but how often can I write something that will keep the interest of my readers, most of who are still struggling with infertility. I really feel that I have lost touch with my audience...and that makes me feel bad. No, I don't feel bad that my three year journey through hell is over and I finally have become a mom, I feel bad that I have lost touch with the fact that I am still an "infertile". Once an infertile, always an infertile!

So, needless to say, I am working on restructuring my blog. I will not be changing the name of blog, but I would like to expand its concept. Try and go from life during infertility, to life after infertility but without losing the basis for why I started this blog. If anyone has any suggestions or thoughts, please share!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

The Bump

A while back I was contacted by one of the editors from "The Bump" magazine who found my blog and wanted to feature my story in their publication. With everything that went on with my pregnancy I completely forgot about it. Just by chance, a few days ago, I stumbled across the online version of the publication (wish I had the hardcopy) and found the issue that I was in. You can click on the link below and go to page 26.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Session of the Year Contest

I have never been one to enter these things, but my photographer has a contest for the best session of the year where everyone that had a full session done is automatically entered. I would really appreciate if everyone would stop by and vote for us. I would really love to win another session so that we can capture Giovanni during his first year. All you have to do is leave a comment on the blog indicating which number session you like the best. We are numbers 9 AND 67. Thanks so much!!

Love to you all!

Friday, January 4, 2013

Giovanni Luca, 4 Months

I just wanted to share the pictures that we had taken right before Christmas. I just love my little boy!