Sunday, July 22, 2012

I Need Xanax!

I joke about it but I actually used to take Xanax for my anxiety disorder. I am proud to say that I haven't used it in over two years as I have been managing my anxiety just fine on my own, but now is when I wish I could take it. Since that scare a week and a half ago, my anxiety has been through the roof. I am just so fearful that something is going to happen and it is going to be my fault for not knowing that something is wrong. I am obsessing over the frequency and intensity of his movements and I even have been using my doppler as I know that he will usually kick at the probe.

After being discharged from the hospital on Monday I had office appointments on Wednesday and Friday to do NSTs and BPPs. As usual (or should I say normal) Giovanni was a little rock star and did great on both of those tests. The Chief MFM came into my ultrasound on Friday and told me that everything looks great. He is a man of few words so I never expect to get much out of him but I know that if he says it is fine, it is! I do have to admit that since hearing that from him on Friday that my anxiety hasn't been so intense and I have been able to function a bit better. I go back tomorrow morning for another NST and BPP so I am hoping for more reassuring news. 


  1. Glad to hear both your tests went well. Can you believe we are al most done? CRAZY!!! GL tomorrow!!

  2. Good luck on your next appointment!