Tuesday, July 31, 2012

You're Damned if You Do, You're Damned if You Don't

First off I want to start the post off by saying that I am absolutely amazed that I have made it to 36 weeks.

I really can't believe how big my belly is getting. Even the nurses and tech commented yesterday how different it looks since last Thursday. The downfall to this is that the stretch marks are getting worse. They are not horrible yet, but I know with three weeks left to go they will probably get worse. At this point, they are the least of my worries. I am actually loving my belly right now as I know it is doing an important job and doing it well. If being covered in stretchmarks means having a big healthy baby, then bring them on!

Now for a little bitching, Krystyn style...

I officially have reached that point where I feel that I can do nothing right according to other people. I know that I have a sarcastic bitchy side (that is just me) but lately, even when I am being nice or not being anything at all, I am being criticized by others. The first thing that is bothering me is the unsolicited parenting advice. God knows that I don't agree with how some people choose to raise their children, but guess what, it is none of my concern and none of my business. I don't go around telling other mothers what they are doing wrong or the best way to raise their child. I can't even respond to these "lectures" anymore without losing it so I now just say, in a very bitchy tone, "sorry, I didn't realize that your child is perfect". I do want to clarify that harmless information or people telling me what worked for them absolutely doesn't bother me. It is when someone questions a decision that my husband and I have made, or flat out tells me or implies, that they don't agree with my decision. Guess what? I could really give two shits?

The other thing that is bothering me are some of the comments that are being made, either to my face or behind my back, in regards to a recent email that my husband and I sent out. Last week, my husband and I decided that it was time to let everyone know what is going on and how it is going to impact things once Giovanni is born. An email was sent to immediate family, extended family, and one to friends, to inform them of some recommendations made by the immunologist and pediatrician. We are unsure how my CVID is going to impact the baby. Since I am considered immunodeficient and unable to maintain immunoglobin levels and build antibodies to disease and illness, it is speculated that Giovanni may not be born with the immunity that normal babies are born with. Granted babies aren't born with developed immune systems to begin with, but most babies are able to get some immunity through antibodies that the mother has while in utero. CVID is a tricky condition as it sometimes affects my general immunity causing me to run random high fevers with no explanation (last one was 105.8 with hospitalization) and it also keeps me from getting the antibodies from vaccinations. Some vaccines, such as Hep B, the pneumovax, and the flu shot, I am unable to get as my body blatantly rejects them. This is why I am a bit of a germaphobe as I don't have the normal immunological capabilities that most people have. Luckily we found a pediatrician who is very well aware of this condition and she, in conjunction with my immunologist (who happens to be the head of immunology at the medical center), have made the recommendation to limit Giovanni's contact with others for the first 8 weeks or so. They have indicated that having immediate family visit is fine as long as they have been free of illness for 7 days and also those who handle him need to have the pertussis vaccination. This in no way says that people must get the vaccine, it just means those who don't will be asked to refrain from handling him...which is no big deal. I completely respect everyone's decision to either get or not get the vaccine, but in return I ask that they respect our wishes as we are just following the recommendations from the doctors.

The response to these emails/conversations have been mixed. Some people have responded favorably letting us know that they completely understand and others have been completely disrespectful taking it as a personal attack as though we don't want them around Giovanni. At first I thought it was the wording of the email as my husband and I were very careful when we wrote it, but if it was poorly written how is it that others completely understand while others are insulted? Believe me, this is the last thing that I want to have to do as everyone dreams of a normal pregnancy and the standard delivery with visitors. Has anyone considered how hard this is for my husband and I? This is not a malicious or controlling move on our part, it is just us doing what is best for our son based on what the doctors are telling us. As I am writing this I am growing more angry that this is even an issue. If it is coming from the doctors, why is it even an issue? Don't people want what is best for Giovanni too or are they just interested in doing what they want? I shouldn't have to deal with this. If things went the way that the doctors predicted and Giovanni was a preemie and in the NICU, no one would be able to see him anyway. Shouldn't people just be happy that isn't the case? Why does everything have to be so hard and so confrontational? In the end all that matters and that my husband and I do what is best for Giovanni. While we understand that this is not the way it should be, if people have a problem with this than obviously they don't have Giovanni best interest in mind.     

Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Long Overdue Nursery Reveal

I have been waiting for what seems like an eternity to share our nursery with everyone. It seemed like every time that I thought it would be done, something happened. Either a chair was back ordered (or lost), the artwork was damaged, etc. I am so happy that it is finally done! Without further adieu, here is Giovanni Luca's nursery:
This is the view of the room coming in from the hallway.

This is the Madison crib from PBK with the Row Your Boat bedding collection.
Close-up of his blanket.

This artwork I ordered from Etsy. This is an exact replica of the artwork I wanted from PBK but when I went to order it, it had been discontinued. I saved so much money by doing this too! I hot glued jute on the back of the frames and my husband designed and made the white hangers. 

His sailboat mobile.

This wing back rocker and matching ottoman in Natural Organic Cotton Basketweave is also from PBK. The sham (which you can't see too well) is the matching sham to the Row Your Boat bedding collection.

In the center of the windows is the PBk Rustic Oar in Blue. The window treatments are custom roman shades in navy that I ordered from Blindsgalore. 

5' round rug (PBK).

This is the Madison Changing Table System. This is the first piece that I fell in love with from PBK. The baskets are from the Container Store and the Lamp I ordered from the Land of Nod.

Wall decal that I ordered from Zulily. (sorry it is hard to see, the sun was starting to go down and the light was funny)

Blocks I ordered from Etsy. I think they are so cute!!

Diaper Caddy.

The view going out to the hallway. Ships wheel is from Ebay.

I have to admit that I had a lot of fun doing this project but I am glad it is over. Now that the nursery is done I feel like I am ready. Can't wait until my little man gets to enjoy his room!

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

35 Weeks

How Far Along: 35 Weeks

Size of Baby: This week the "average" baby is measuring approximately 18.19 inches crown to heel and is weighing in around 5.25 pounds. Considering that he weighed 5.1 pounds two weeks ago and babies at this stage gain a 1/2 pound or more a week, I would guess that he is already well over 6 pounds. 

Picture of Baby: The pictures that we have really aren't that good and are actually kind of freaky looking.


Maternity Clothes: I actually managed to wear a non-pregnancy top from Express as my husband took me out for a nice dinner. I also got to wear heels! I only walked about 20 feet in them but it still felt awesome to have them on. I have been really lucky so far in the swelling department so I hope it stays that way.

Weight Gain: When I was weighed on Friday I was only up one pound from two weeks prior. So I am now officially up 31 pounds. I have a feeling though when I am weighed on Thursday that I packed on a few pounds as it just isn't normal that I only put on a pound in two weeks.

Belly: No new pictures this week.
  
Stretch Marks: Ugh! A few more have popped up and they have gotten a bit longer. My husband seems to think that they are getting lighter but I think that he is just trying to be nice.

Sleep: Awful! Between being in pain and having to pee, I am getting up 6+ times a night. This is leaving me utterly exhausted during the day. It is like the 1st trimester all over again.  

Best Moment of the Week:  Actually it was having a four hour breakfast with a good friend and no we didn't eat all that time! I have been isolating myself from the outside world for the past couple of months as it is so hard to be around people that are happy for me. I know that it probably sounds weird, and I truly appreciate everyone's happiness for me, but right now I am just too scared to be happy and excited. Don't get me wrong, I am happy and excited, just in my own way. This friend, who I have know since childhood, not only has been through infertility, she has also been faced with multiple losses so she completely understands why I am the way that I am. I am VERY grateful to have her in my life!

Movement: I am so happy to report that his movements are back to normal.

Symptoms: I can't eat! Giovanni and my stomach are apparently competing for space and Giovanni is winning. I am only eating two small meals a day now but forcing myself to have a small snack before I go to bed.  

Food Cravings: Still craving fruit, particularly watermelon and mango, like crazy.  

Gender: Still a boy.

What I Miss: I have to stick with my previous answer and say feeling normal.  

What I'm Looking Forward to: I look forward to every day  now. I wake up wondering if today is the day I go into labor. I don't want it to happen yet, but I know if it does, we are in a good place.  

Nursery: After all of the drama last week with the rocker, I got a call that they found my rocker and it is being delivered this Friday. I will believe it when I see it!

Milestones: Making it to 35 weeks. Today marks the day where he is no longer mandated to go to the NICU. They will evaluate him right after delivery in my room and if he is doing fine, he gets to stay with me. Prior to this it would be a mandatory admission into the NICU. I am so happy about this!

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I Need Xanax!


I joke about it but I actually used to take Xanax for my anxiety disorder. I am proud to say that I haven't used it in over two years as I have been managing my anxiety just fine on my own, but now is when I wish I could take it. Since that scare a week and a half ago, my anxiety has been through the roof. I am just so fearful that something is going to happen and it is going to be my fault for not knowing that something is wrong. I am obsessing over the frequency and intensity of his movements and I even have been using my doppler as I know that he will usually kick at the probe.

After being discharged from the hospital on Monday I had office appointments on Wednesday and Friday to do NSTs and BPPs. As usual (or should I say normal) Giovanni was a little rock star and did great on both of those tests. The Chief MFM came into my ultrasound on Friday and told me that everything looks great. He is a man of few words so I never expect to get much out of him but I know that if he says it is fine, it is! I do have to admit that since hearing that from him on Friday that my anxiety hasn't been so intense and I have been able to function a bit better. I go back tomorrow morning for another NST and BPP so I am hoping for more reassuring news. 

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Another Stay at the Ritz

I know that it has been a week since I updated my blog but the shit hit the fan again. I went in Thursday for my weekly appointment and things didn't go exactly as planned. I had noticed that Giovanni wasn't his usual active self. During my NST he only had two accelerations and that is the absolute minimum to pass. He normally has 7+ during every NST so I was a bit concerned. I then had my BPP where the tech noted that he wasn't moving too much and he also never had an episode of his practice breathing. At this point I started to freak out. The MFM came in and told me that while things are technically "acceptable", he could see how anxious I was and offered me a visit to L&D or a return visit on Friday. I chose the return visit.

Later that evening I noticed that Giovanni was moving a bit but it was still diminished. I knew that his most active period (1am) was coming up so I would wait until then to start panicking. 1am rolled around and nothing. 2am still nothing. At this point I got out my doppler just to listen. He had a beautiful heartbeat so I relaxed a bit. I managed to fall asleep around 6am but woke up two hours later in a panic. I went downstairs and had breakfast and he still wasn't moving. At this point I decided to head to my doctors a bit early as I just felt as though something was wrong. As soon as I sat down to check in with the receptionist I could no longer control my tears. I told her why I was there and she immediately went and got the ultrasound tech. When the ultrasound started the first thing I looked for was the heart. It was beating and had a great rhythm. She then measured my AFI. It was a 12 which is normal but was down from an 18 the day before. Since the measurement is so objective I really wasn't worried. The tech then started to focus on movement and breathing. This is when I knew something wasn't right. He had minimal movement and no breathing. After 30 minutes of observing, the tech went and got the Chief MFM. He took over and was trying to get Giovanni to move and breath. He did neither. The MFM explained to me that one of the first signs that something is going wrong is that the baby doesn't do practice breathing. He then sat there very quietly for a minute and then said "I think you need to go". I responded "to be monitored or to deliver". He was very quite again and I could tell that he was processing everything. He then told me that he wanted to have me closely monitored and he is not going to hesitate to deliver me. I am now sobbing again as I just wanted my little boy to be okay. As I am walking out to get into my car, I called my husband to let him know what was going on and that he needed to come to the hospital. Luckily the hospital is right across the street from my doctor so the trip was short.

I spent 16 hours in L&D being monitored. Giovanni started to perk up that evening so the panic level dropped. At 1:30am they came in to do a Pitocin Contraction Stress Test to see how he responded to contractions. I was terrified of this as I have heard that Pitocin is awful. They started the test using 1ml/hr and then they doubled it every 20 minutes as they needed me to have 3 contractions in 10 minutes. The nurse said that people usually respond once the dose reaches 8ml/hr as they usually induce people using between 10-20ml/hr. Apparently I am not the norm. After no response at 8ml/hr it got increased to 16. Nothing. The nurse came in to increase it to 32 and that is when the contractions came out of no where. I can't even begin to describe how horrific the pain was. The pain was mostly in my back. It felt like my kidneys were going to blow apart. I had the need to get on all fours to help with the pain but I couldn't move as they had me attached to the monitor. As soon as I hit three contractions the nurse turned off the Pitocin. The contractions continued for another 20 minutes or so and then subsided. At 6am the nurse came in to let me know that they were moving me out of L&D to the antepartum wing. I was so happy to hear this as I knew that I wasn't going to deliver anytime soon. Giovanni performed perfectly on the Pitocin test.

To make a long story short, they monitored me over the weekend and everything continued to look good. Monday morning the MFM came in and gave me a few options. She knew that I was very anxious and scared about something happening, so she gave me the option to stay in the hospital until I had Giovanni or go home with three times weekly appointments at their office with NSTs and BPPs. After much contemplation, I decided to go home. She gave me specific instructions and told me to return if anything feels off. He is moving great today and I feel a bit more at ease. I go tomorrow and Friday for my appointments this weeks so I am hoping that things remain the same.

Since I am 34 weeks today (I still can't believe that I made it this far) I figured that I would do my usual weekly post, but an abbreviated verision since this post is already getting long.

How Far Along: 34 Weeks

Size of Baby: This week the "average" baby is measuring approximately 17.72 inches crown to heel and is weighing in around 4.73 pounds. I had a growth scan this past Thursday and Giovanni was up to 5.1 pounds and in the 72nd percentile. He is now measuring 2 weeks ahead. His head, however, is measuring 3 weeks ahead.


Belly:


  
Stretch Marks: One new one popped up. Oh well, I am more concerned about having a big healthy baby then I am about my vanity.

Best Moment of the Week:  Installing the car seat. My husband and I did this yesterday evening after I got discharged from the hospital. Very exciting!   

What I'm Looking Forward to: Delivering a nice, big, healthy baby. 

Nursery: Ugh!! The rocker for the nursery was supposed to be delivered this past Friday. PBK called last Wednesday to inform me that they "misplaced" my rocker so they had to cancel the delivery. They told me that a dock search would take 48 hours and that they would call back by Monday to reschedule. After not hearing anything, I called them Monday evening to see what was going on. They informed me that they were unable to locate the rocker. What?? How the hell do you lose a massive rocker?!?! After yelling at them for 10 minutes, they informed that their only option is to reorder it. I told them that I ordered this rocker back on May 8th and I don't want to wait another 2 1/2 months. They then informed that it would be more like 3 months as they are estimating the middle of October. I told them that this was unacceptable. They then gave me a discount of $215 and told me that they would contact the vendor to see if they could expedite it. The only other option I had was to cancel the entire order and and I didn't want to do this as I am in love with this chair. I figured that I probably wouldn't use it all that much the first couple of months anyway so I accepted their offer. This rocker is going to be the death of me!!!    

Milestones: Making it to 34 weeks.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

How Far Along: 33 Weeks

Size of Baby: This week the "average" baby is measuring approximately 17.20 inches crown to heel and is weighing in around 4.23 pounds. Growth scan scheduled for a week from tomorrow..

Picture of Baby: This is a picture that was taken last Friday at 32+3.



Maternity Clothes: Maternity clothes suck! I have been wearing full panel pants since about 20 weeks. I am now at the point where I don't want anything touching my stomach. I figured that my demi panel pants would be better but boy was I wrong! Think I can just be naked until I deliver? The other thing that I am dealing with is trying to figure out what to where home from the hospital. I am thinking that I will just where a maxi dress home but I am not sure if this is going to be the most comfortable option given the diaper-sized pad I will be wearing.

Weight Gain: Well, I have hit the 30 pound mark as of last Friday. At this point I am so thankful that I focused on not gaining too much weight early on as I would be a complete cow by now if I hadn't considering that you put on most weight during the 3rd trimester. I went back and looked at the week prior to the 3rd trimester (Week 26) and I was only up 17 pounds and up 16 pounds at 25 weeks. I have gained on average 1.75 pounds a week since starting the 3rd trimester and 1-2 is average. I am not worried at this point at all. At most I will have gained between 35-40 pounds. It is a tad higher than I should be but it could be worse. At least I have breastfeeding to look forward to...that will help be get this weight off!

Belly: This was taken last Thursday at 32+3.
  
Stretch Marks: Yup, still there. On a positive note, I don't have anymore but they seem to be getting a tad longer. I always figured that since I didn't have any by 30 weeks that I wasn't going to get them. I am now learning that most people don't get stretch marks until they are well into the 3rd trimester. I guess that was just wishful thinking on my part...or maybe denial.

Sleep: Still dealing with the pain from the SPD. I wake up more times screaming in pain from this than I do because of having to pee. According to my doctor 93% of cases of SPD resolve after pregnancy. If I am in that 7% where it doesn't I just may kill myself. 

Best Moment of the Week:  Meeting our pediatrician. After talking to some current moms, I learned what is important when picking an office. Suggestions I received were 1). find somewhere near home 2). go with a group practice where the docs are on call, you have one primary doctor but can be seen by other docs in an emergency 3). a place that is open 6-7 days a week with extended hours for walk-ins is a necessity and 4). find an office that works with your hospital of choice. That last one was difficult as my hospital of choice is an hour away but I was able to find a practice with all of these things and it is only 10-15 minutes from our house. I even got to sit down with the doctor for an hour (the one I chose) and ask as many questions as I wanted. It was a great experience. 

Movement: Normally movement starts to slow down around this point but it hasn't yet. I am starting to get sore on the inside from all of his karate chops. 

Symptoms: The fatigue is awful but the pain is worse. 

Food Cravings: I have finally reached that point in pregnancy where I feel full all time which is making it hard to meet all of my nutritional needs. I am making everything that I put into my mouth count as I need to be sure that I am getting enough of what I need for the baby. 

Gender: Still a boy. Confirmed that he testes have descended nicely.

What I Miss: Feeling normal. Not that I mind being pregnant, and I would never complain, but I am starting to look forward to feeling like my old self again. 

What I'm Looking Forward to: Not sure. I am very excited about his pending arrival but I am terrified of the whole process. I think my biggest fear is my water breaking in public. Having my doctor tell me that this is most likely the way labor will start for me, since I have no cervix left,  hasn't helped that fear either. 

Nursery: Almost completely finished. The rocker is being delivered on Friday. I am so excited!! Pictures this coming weekend...I promise!

Weekly Wisdom: None this week.  

Milestones: Just hitting 33 weeks is a big deal for me. 

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Bedside Manners, What are Those?

Yesterday morning I had my weekly appointment. As usual, everything was just perfect with Giovanni. He scored an 8/8 on the BPP and passed the NST with flying colors. The exciting part is that his breathing patterns are becoming quite regular so it is nice to know that his lungs are maturing like they should be. After my NST I had my appointment with the MFM. Due to some last minute changes and emergencies, I wasn't able to see the MFM that I was scheduled with and was forced to see the one that I am not all that fond of. Don't get me wrong, she is great from a clinic perspective and is very focused on what she does, but her bedside manners suck! This is actually the MFM that I have requested not to see anymore as I always leave my appointments with her in tears and confused more than ever. Yesterday I didn't have a choice but to see her as there was no other MFM in clinic...so I just went with it.

Before she came into the room as I was actually felling quite proud of myself. Here I am, almost 33 weeks and I am still pregnant. The MFMs doubted that I would make it this far but I did. When she walked in she smiled and made reference to how far I had gotten. When I expressed how pleased I was and even happier that I exceeded everyone's expectations, her response was "well, you aren't the first one to do so". Okay, was that meant as "you aren't anything special" or was she proud that there has been other women that have exceeded their expectations? I am very happy that other women do so well, and I am happy that I am one of those women too. The next comment really rubbed me the wrong way. Her exact words to me were "you can stop gaining weight now". Okay, and how the hell do you suggest that I do that? Since the baby has a few more pounds to put on and I will naturally put on weight due to fluid and growth of the uterus, should I stop eating? I can't even begin to describe how this comment made me feel. It isn't like I have gained an excessive amount of weight either. I will be 33 weeks on Tuesday and I have gained exactly 30 pounds! I am gaining about 1 pound a week which is completely normal, and if I make it to 38 weeks when they are going to induce me and continue with this trend, I would have only gained 35 pounds, which is within the recommended weight gain of 25-35 pounds. Yes, I am on the high side of that but I have been sitting on my ass for almost 13 weeks on bed rest. So actually if you take that into consideration I think 35 pounds is actually quite awesome. If I was able to go swimming or go for walks I probably wouldn't have gained as much. But still 30 pounds is not a lot!! I then found that I was defending myself saying that I really don't eat that bad. Once and a while I will indulge and I had mentioned that occasionally I will treat myself to French fries. She then told me that I should only eat three and throw the rest away. Really? What am I, five?

The hardest part of this whole ordeal with the weight gain is what it did to me psychologically. It has been hard enough coping with the weight gain and my expanding girth, but then to have someone criticize me just killed me. As most of my long time readers know, I have struggled with an eating disorder for most of my life. All throughout my fertility treatments and pregnancies, all six of them, I have forced myself to put that aside and deal with it. I'm not going to lie, I have struggled like hell with this pregnancy but I have never relapsed once. I have become quite depressed at times where I won't get up out of bed and all I do is lay there and cry because of my new body image, but not once did I ever think about limiting calories or not eating. My husband has been a great support to me and realizes how hard this is. He is supporting me and coaching me every step of the way. After my appointment yesterday though, I just lost it. That ED psyche kicked in and I was heading towards a bad place. My husband must have sat and talked to me for over an hour to get me to see how ridiculous the MFM was and how she obviously had no knowledge of my past and didn't recognize how truly well I am doing. I am still struggling with this but I 100% refuse to let this effect Giovanni. This is almost over and I have done so well. I really need to give myself credit and be proud that I can control this. If I , there is no way I would have made it through 33 weeks of pregnancy without a relapse. I am much stronger than what I give myself credit for and I really need to stop being so hard on myself. I must realize that people are going to say insensitive things at times and that there are ways that I can cope with those comments. This weight gain is temporary but the miracle that is coming because of it is permanent. That is all I have to keep telling myself...

Thursday, July 5, 2012

32 Weeks (and 2 days)

How Far Along: 32 Weeks

Size of Baby: This week the "average" baby is measuring approximately 16.69 inches crown to heel and is weighing in around 3.75 pounds, however, based on his growth I know that we are already well over 4 pounds.

Picture of Baby: This is a picture that was taken last Thursday at 31+2. The tech saw that he was active and tried to get a 3D/4D shot when he was squirming around. She was able to get part of his face. His eyes look a bit freaky though but it is how she had to soften the image in order to define his lips and nose.

Maternity Clothes: I have finally purchased my first nursing bra and a couple of nursing nightgowns. I didn't want to but too much stuff as I am not sure how big the "girls" will get once my milk comes in so I don't want to buy things and waste them.

Weight Gain: I had no weight gain this last week and was still up 27 pounds. I have a feeling though that this week I have made up for it so I am expecting to be up 30 pounds when I am weighed tomorrow morning.

Belly: I will post one over the weekend as I just keep forgetting to take one.   
  
Stretch Marks: The stretch marks have finally started! They are not bad but I had a complete nervous breakdown when I first saw them. I have some on my hips and a few on the bottom of my belly. They aren't too bad yet and are quite small but I am sure that they won't stay that way. I have previous stretch marks from when I was obese in high school (none on my belly though) so I was really hoping that I wouldn't get them now since I already had been big. In the middle of my meltdown my husband (who felt horrible) came over and put his arms around me and said "I love you just the way you are and besides, when you have your tummy tuck they will be removed anyway". God I love him!!!

Sleep: Sleep is officially a thing of the past. The pain from the SPD is waking me up constantly. It is to the point where I have to get out of bed and pace. Today it was so bad I balled my eyes out and threw myself on the floor. Supposedly it corrects itself after birth. I hope so!! 

Best Moment of the Week:  This may sound pathetic but I was very excited when my breast pump got delivered. My insurance company covered it in full since they consider returning to work a "medical necessity". It is nice to see that they support breastfeeding considering that "breast is best". I do have a fear though that I won't be able to do it as I have the insulin resistance, hypothyroidism, and hormonal imbalance (hence the infertility issues) working against me. I am working with a lactation consultant so she is going to do her best to get me breastfeeding. At the very least I am hoping to be able to pump so I can exclusively give him breast milk...as long as we aren't faced with allergies and intolerances.

Movement: All I can say is ow!

Symptoms: Afternoon fatigue, frequent urination, and pelvic pain and pressure. Lots of fun.

Food Cravings: Still craving fruit. My husband has been cubing Watermelon like crazy for me. I haven't had much swelling so I am not restricting my intake.

Gender: Still a boy.

What I Miss: Being able to get comfortable. I thought that I was uncomfortable around 24 weeks. Wow, that seems like a pin prick compared to what I feel now.

What I'm Looking Forward to: His arrival. I don't want him to come until at least 35 weeks but I am starting to get excited. I still can't believe that I am going to be a mom!

Nursery: I got the call today that the wing back rocker for the nursery is done. It will be delivered a week from Friday...five weeks sooner than the originally had anticipated.

Weekly Wisdom: None this week.  

Milestones: Every second that I am still pregnant is a milestone for me. My next goal though is to make it to 35 weeks.   

Monday, July 2, 2012

Prayers Needed

This time I am asking for prayers not for myself but for a friend of mine. My friend, who is 17 weeks pregnant with twins and has suffered through infertility and multiple losses, went to L&D last night after feeling a gush of fluid. She found out that Baby A's membranes ruptured and there is no fluid left. She needs to make some very difficult decisions right now and I am hoping that everyone out there can send love, strength, and prayers her way to help her through this difficult time. She is an absolutely amazing woman who has a heart of gold. Please help me, through prayer, get her through this heartbreaking situation. Thank you so much!