Friday, April 20, 2012
After getting a few more hours of sleep I finally woke up and realized that I had an appointment with my endocrinologist. As I was getting ready, the medical supply company delivered my wheelchair (for outings) and this think is a total clunker. There is no way in hell that I can lift it as I am restricted from lifting...and that is when it all hit me. My husband is having his cardiac surgery a week from today. I can't do shit for myself and now he is going to be out of commission for a while. My BFF is graciously sitting at the hospital with me since his surgery takes between 5-7 hours, but what the hell am I going to do later on? I will be in my wheelchair, but how am I going to get it in my car when (if) I go home that night? How the hell are we going to function once he gets home and can't do shit? I seriously don't know what we are going to do. In a panic I called and hired a poop scooping service for my three dogs (used them once over the winter) and I also set us up with a lawn service for a few weeks. I am sure that we will manage, somehow, but I am just very anxious about it. I know that he is restricted the most the first 5 days so those will be the toughest. I am hoping to do some meal prep next week and freeze a bunch of things so we can eat without me violating the rules of bed rest. I will have my husband do all the laundry on Tuesday so that it is washed and put away before his procedure. I guess it is the unknown that scares me. I am also worried about my appointment on Wednesday. If my cervix funneled any further they will be placing me on strict bed rest and even possibly in the hospital to monitor things. What the hell are we going to do if that happens??