Sunday, February 12, 2012

11 Weeks 5 Days

I haven't posted much in the past few days as I have just been too tired. Yesterday I woke up around 9am and needed a nap by 1pm. I napped for four hours! Despite my glorious nap, I was still in bed by 10pm. Today I met a friend for lunch at noon, ran to the store, and was back in bed by 5pm where I mapped for three hours. I am really hoping that this passes soon! It is getting harder and harder to explain to those who do not know about this pregnancy why all of a sudden I am always unable to do things...or always tired. Hopefully the farther we get into the second trimester, the better this will get.

I am absolutely terrified about my NT scan coming up on Tuesday. I can't stop thinking obsessing about the various outcomes. My husband is convinced that everything will be fine and I really hope that he is right. We won't have the full results for an entire week so if things on the scan are "borderline" I will be living in hell until we get the results. The two things that I am concerned with is the actual NT measurement and the presence of a nasal bone. I have read so many things about the NT measurement and I really am hoping that ours is under 2.0cm so that I don't have to worry. Technically, if it is under 2.5 I really shouldn't worry, but I am not the kind of person who does well with "borderline high" results. Just give me normal!!!

My husband and I are also debating when to tell everyone. He is still planning on announcing the week after next once we get the results from the combined screening, but I am totally against it. I now want to wait until 18 weeks before we tell. I don't know why 18 weeks, but that is the number that I have in my head. I honestly believe that I am just too scared to tell anyone. I am sure that if we wait until 18 weeks, that I will push it to 24 weeks and then 28 weeks and so on. I wonder if I will ever be ready to share our news. I told Dr. Braverman how I was feeling (being nervous) as he emailed me yesterday to check to see how I was doing. He said that given everything that I have been through, I will be nervous until I am holding my baby in my arms. He is absolutely right...

2 comments:

  1. Let's be serious. You'll be nervous for the rest of your life, not just at birth!

    Congrats on your pregnancy. The fatigue will get better in the second trimester (and come back in the third!) Take care of yourself and keep taking naps (without guilt!!)

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  2. I kept delaying in telling people, too. By the time I told people at work, their response was "Duh!" LOL! Seriously, though, I am so happy for you! I hope your NT ultrasound and bloodwork are perfect!

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