Friday, January 27, 2012

Going Out On A Limb

For those of you who don't know me personally, I am VERY superstitious, aka OCD. I have rituals and patterns that I must follow. A superstition that I have, has to do with purchasing baby items. I am so afraid that as soon as I buy something, no matter how big or small, that I will lose my baby. My husband thinks that it is time that I start working on this issue, but I am not so sure that I am ready. Well, today I went out on a a big way. I made my first purchase for the baby. One of the ONLY reasons why I did this is because it is something that I know I wanted, and it was deeply discounted for a limited time on Amazon.

This is the Sealy Posturepedic Springfree 2-Stage Crib and Toddler Mattress. I have been looking at this mattress and have known for a while that this is the one that I wanted. It just happened to be featured on Amazon today for over $80 off their price. I checked our local Babies"R"Us and their price was $209. Amazon had it for $154. I went against everything I believed in and I purchased it. With Amazon you have 365 days to return it new in package so I figured that I couldn't go wrong.

Immediately after pressing the "complete purchase" button, I whipped out my doppler to make sure that my superstitions were not right. Within 10 seconds I found that beautiful galloping noise. The heart rate was right around 180. I couldn't help by get a little choked up as I still cannot believe that little heartbeat is coming from my belly. I was a bit apprehensive at first about getting the doppler as I was worried that it would make me worry more, but it was the best decision I have ever made. My doctor said that a strong fast heartbeat like the one my baby has is a great indication that everything is okay so far. If I can't find the heartbeat, because I know exactly where it is now, or if the heartbeat suddenly slows down, I am to call my doctor immediately. This is very reassuring to me. Unfortunately, if something is going to happen there is nothing I can do to stop it, but at least I won't go weeks without knowing that something has happened or that something is wrong. That is my biggest fear, to walk around naive to what has happened inside my belly. It's not that I am planning on something bad happening, I am just afraid of not knowing if it does. As long as I have my doppler, I can keep on eye on what is happening inside of me. What a comforting feeling that is!!!

1 comment:

  1. I'm superstitious too but every now and then my gut tells me that a black cat on Friday the 13th isn't so bad. :) Congrats on your miracle!