Friday, December 30, 2011

5 Weeks 3 Days

First off, I would just like to thank everyone for the outpouring of support over the past week. A lot of you have sent me private emails, commented on my posts or even sent me a texts (my infertility friends). I, however, have been in "hiding" over the past weeks and have been doing everything I can to avoid facing what is going on. Over the next few days I will be responding to everyone and also catching up on the blogs that I follow. Thanks so much for understanding!!

Anyway...this morning we had our second ultrasound and this was the ultrasound that would determine if our pregnancy is progressing or if it was a blighted ovum or even a pseudo sac caused by an ectopic. When the nurse went to start the scan, I immediately looked away as I couldn't stand the possibility of disappointment. As I turned my head I could see a large black dot out of the corner of my eye. When I finally got the courage to look at the screen I saw a black circle...nothing in it. It was bigger than what it was on Monday, but empty. She moved the wand a bit to the right and BAM, there was the most perfect yolk sac. Thank God!! Everything was measuring almost perfect to the day and things are progressing nicely. I go back a week from today (or sooner if I freak out) for my next ultrasound to see the heartbeat. I am still nervous, but much more optimistic at this point.

I called my local medical center today to setup my first OB appointment as they have a satellite office about 15 minutes from my house. When I called they took some basic background information. They said that since I was being referred to the MFM group as I have been designated "high risk" that I will not be seeing a regular OB so I will have to go directly to the medical center to be seen. They said that with my history that the MFM doc will be the only one following me as they don't like to coordinate treatment with other OBs...even their own. In a way this is quite the relief to me as I know that I will get the best care possible and will be followed much more closely than a normal pregnancy. They told me that they will contact me either Thursday or Friday of next week to setup my first appointment. I am not sure how often I will be seen but I know that it won't be nearly enough for my liking!! I guess it's time to realize that I can't control this pregnancy and learn to have some faith in others...maybe.


  1. I love your last sentence about giving up control and having faith in others. That really struck a cord with me. Through this whole process, it kills me that I dont have control of the situation.

    Keeping you in my thoughts :)

  2. So glad you got to see a yolk sac today and that you are getting the high risk care you need from the OB/MFM practice.

    And I totally understand why you went into hiding for a while. Glad you're back.

  3. So glad that things continue to progress well - hoping that everything keeps going so well!

  4. Congrats on seeing the yolk sac!

    I'm in complete agreement about your last sentence. It's hard giving me perceived control, but I'm finding that all the stress of worrying is actually worse for me and this pregnancy. So I've been focusing on staying balanced (easier said than done).

    Fingers crossed for the transition.

  5. Thank God! I am so very happy for you :) I will continue to keep you in my prayers. xoxo

  6. I know how scary ultrasounds are, trust me. Despite my history of loss, I had to wait until 8 weeks for my first ultrasound!!! 8 WEEKS, can you believe it??! I'm so happy things are looking good for you!! I'm so excited for you to see/hear the heartbeat. I finally got the pleasure of doing so with this pregnancy, and I cried. God bless you, your family, and your lil bean!! So excited for your good news!!