Thursday, October 6, 2011

Pain In The...

I have been so uncomfortable the last couple of days. The swelling and pain from my ER finally got better on Monday as I felt human again. However, Tuesday night I had a sudden onset of pain in my lower left pelvic area. I just figured that it was more "IVF" related stuff, but I noticed that if I touched the area I hit the ceiling. I also had quite a lump. I figured that it was a swollen lymph node so I went and saw my GYN on Wednesday as I didn't want to risk infection so close to possible implantation. From this appointment I learned that I have a hernia. Lucky me! She said that it was small but there wasn't much we could do even if we wanted to because of the IVF. She also ran a urinalysis and that showed that I had blood in my urine. She sent it out for culture to rule out UTI so I should know about that next week, although I doubt I have a UTI. I also think that the pain and that lump is still nothing but a swollen lymph node, but who am I...

The TWW is going quite well as I have not been thinking of it much. If you notice, the last time I posted an update was on Sunday, and that is not like me. I am focusing on other things and actually staying quite busy. I have a full weekend planned too. I am staying committed to not POAS before my Beta. The one thing that I have learned is that my result means nothing. If I POAS and get a BFP it doesn't mean that it isn't going to turn out to be another chemical pregnancy or result in another miscarriage. If it is a BFN, I will go crazy as I will want to stop my meds so I can get AF and just move on, however, my clinic requires you to wait the full 14 days from ER. So even if I no it's negative, I will still have to live in hell for how ever many days until I get the okay to stop my meds. My husband and I have both taken Thursday off so we can be together when we get the call. Right now I have no plan if it is a BFN as that isn't really important right now. Normally at this point I would already have my next protocol planned out but for some reason I really have no interest in doing so, it just isn't a priority right now. I know, so unlike me. This new found peace I have is the best thing in the world!

3 comments:

  1. A hernia?! Oh, man, that sucks! But I am so glad you have found a way to be at peace with where you are in the world. :)

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  2. Pulling for you and looking forward to reading about that BFP!

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