Sunday, June 12, 2011
It Was Just A Dream
I have been having the most bizarre dreams about this IVF cycle. Last week I had two dreams about the number of eggs that were retrieved. In the first dream I had 26 eggs collected, however, the doctor walked in and told me the my estrogen was only 78 so something was definitely wrong with my eggs. In the second dream my doctor walked in and handed me a card after retrieval. It was a sympathy card letting me know that he only collected 6 eggs and we were not eligible for CGH. Last night I had a dream that I didn't get enough eggs for CGH and that he was recommending that I not do the transfer and wait to do a FET in a few months...I woke up crying.
I am really looking forward to getting this show on the road. There isn't anything more that I can do, and what happens from hear on out is the way that it is going to be. I go in tomorrow morning for my last (I hope) monitoring appointment. I really hope that my follicles are ready so that I can trigger tomorrow night. I guess worst case scenario is that they will have me trigger Tuesday night but since my estrogen will already be near, if not in the 4000's I am sure they will not have me wait. I can tell that my estrogen is starting to skyrocket as I am extremely tired and I feel like my ovaries are going to explode. My pelvic area is as hard as a rock so I know that my ovaries are probably the size of footballs. Normal human ovaries are generally 30x15mm. On Friday mine were measuring 37x30mm and 38x30mm. Since my follicles were not mature yet, I can't imagine how big they are going to be tomorrow. During my IVF in December they maxed out at 50x37mm and 28x32mm. Gee, I can't wait.
So between today and tomorrow I am going to focus on getting things down around the house that I won't be able to do after this week, and also drinking my POM juice, yes, POM juice.
I read on the internet (yes, Google) that POM juice can help to thicken your lining. Of coarse I will do anything at this point so I went out and bout this lovely $10 bottle of juice. Not realizing right away that it had 900 calories in a bottle, I started downing it. Well, if it didn't do anything, at least I had like 50 servings of fruit this weekend!