Friday, May 27, 2011

Someone Was Watching Over Me...

I am happy to report that things actually went well for a change. I had a wonderful anesthesiologist that gave me a great cocktail of drugs, which I was more than willing to accept. After waking, the first thing I remember asking is "now what is wrong?" I was so afraid that it was going to be more bad news. The nurse that was in the room informed me that they removed 3 good size polyps and that the doctor said that my uterus looked great! (I never thought I would be so excited about having an attractive uterus!) So the plan is to proceed with IVF. I have 12 days left of birth control so this means that I will be starting stims around the 12th or 13th. I am so freaking excited! I had this eerie "positive" feeling today. I just felt like I have nothing to worry about and that everything was going to turn out just fine. I have always had this intuition every time I have been pregnant. Going in to each cycle I would either feel good or bad about the outcome...I was right every single time! The only fear that I have is either being oversuppressed again or overstimulating this time since they are upping my med doses. To put my mind at ease, they drew an Antimullerian Hormone level which will tell us how my ovarian reserve is. See, now I don't have to worry!

On a different note, something hit me this morning. Yes, this has been nothing but a freaking nightmare but there has been some good that has come out of this. On my way to surgery this morning my phone was going crazy with text messages and Facebook messages, no, not from my longtime friends and family, but from every single one of my friends from CNY that are either currently going through fertility treatment or have successfully graduated. It felt so good knowing that I had such a strong, positive force behind me. To my complete surprise, a friend from my infertility group was waiting in the parking lot for me when I arrived for surgery. Now let me remind you that it was 7:45am! She gave me a big hug and handed me a card. As I was waiting to be called I opened the card and inside was this completely heartfelt message that brought me to tears. There was also a little black pouch inside as well. I reached into the pouch and pulled out a metal with a guardian angel on it. I felt instantly comforted and safe. I actually slipped the metal back into the pouch and placed the pouch inside my sock so it could go into surgery with me. I would like to think that I did have a guardian angel watching over me today. I have decided that for every appointment along with my ER and ET for this cycle, my guardian angel will be in my sock. I will also wear a pair of lucky fertility socks that have been passed onto me by a good friend as well.

Today for a change, I feel good!!


  1. Hello from ICLW. I am so sorry for your losses. Glad your surgery went well and you are feeling good about this cycle. Best wishes.

  2. i am so happy to hear you found positive news and are feeling a bit of relief and comfort! wishing you a great weekend :)

  3. Thanks so much ladies! I am so happy that things are finally going my way...I hope it continues!! Thanks for the support!

  4. Sorry it is taking me so long to comment on this post. I am so happy that your surgery went well and that you know how supported and loved you are. You have been such an amazing friend throughout your ordeal, how could we not adore you? I'm so excited about your upcoming IVF cycle.