Saturday, March 27, 2010

Another angel to watch over me...

Monday before my transfusion I had my weekly ultrasound to check the baby and we discovered that the heartbeat was gone. Because I was further along, they scheduled me for a D&C Tuesday morning. After not sleeping all night I decided 2 hours before my surgery to put it off as I was in total denial about what had happened. My primary care physician repeated the ultrasound Tuesday evening and confirmed that the baby had passed away. I rescheduled my D&C for Thursday morning and went through with it.

I will be taking a hiatus from life for a while as I don't want to participate in reality at the moment. I am sure that in time I will feel better but right now I am not okay. I appreciate everyone's kind words. I have had my phone and computer off all week so I apologize if I have missed any calls or messages. I am not ready to talk about this. Thanks everyone, for understanding.

Monday, March 15, 2010

I Am So Bored!!

Well, I was discharged from the hospital (finally) yesterday afternoon. My wonderful Gastroenterologist was able to find a medication that is safe with my pregnancy. I am still having quite a bit of pain but it seems like things are finally starting to calm down a little. Today I went for another ultrasound and I am happy to report that the baby is doing fine. The heart rate is already up to 138bpm. I go for another ultrasound next Monday, right before my second transfusion.

So, I am home resting for a few days and I am absolutely bored out of my mind. I decided that I wanted to start looking at baby furniture and I was able to find exactly what I was looking for. I (very quickly) stopped at Babies'R'Us after my appointment and was able to see it in person.

Heritage Collection by Baby Cache in Cherry

I think it totally fits the style of our house and it is solid Mahogany (which I love.) We will get good use out of it as it converts into a toddler bed and a full size bed.

So that is all for now. Time for another nap!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Quick Update

I am still in the hospital (second time in a week) and they still can't figure out what is wrong. It is like my intestines are seizing up and they can't stop it. The doctor that I saw yesterday said that after I get past the first trimester (about 5 more weeks), I would be able to go back on some of my medicine which prevents this. They had to take me off of it as it effects the baby's development at this point.

On a positive note, my OB did an ultrasound yesterday to check on the baby and the baby has quadrupled in size since Tuesday and we now have a heart rate of 113! I have 33 more weeks to enjoy this and I am hoping the pain will go away long enough so that I can. At least my baby is fine...that is all that matters.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

We Have a Heartbeat!!!!

After the fiasco this weekend (I will explain in a minute) our Monday ultrasound got pushed to today. My husband finally got to go with me which worked out great because we were finally able to see the baby and the heartbeat!!

My official due date is November 3rd! However, I am sure that by the beginning of October I will be ready to get it out!!

So my fiasco this weekend...I have been having quite a bit of pain over the past week in my lower abdomen and back. After verifying that the baby was okay, the doctor told me to keep on eye on it. Friday night, on our way to see a musical at the theater, the pain intensified so much that I didn't think that I was going to make it. I called the on-call nurse and she said that I should go to the ER. Well, the pain let up in about 20 minutes so I decided not to go. The next night the pain got so bad that I thought I was dying. My husband immediately brought me to the ER where the physician was sure that I had a rupturing appendix. They tried to see what was going on with an ultrasound but they couldn't. They then spent 3 hours trying to convince me to have a CT scan but I refused because of the amount of radiation and how much it would put the baby at risk. Finally, the radiologist agreed with me and decided to do a MRI, however, the hospital's MRI was down and they had to transport me via ambulance to another facility for the MRI. Needless to say, my appendix was fine, but they found I had an intestinal blockage...hence the horrible pain. They admitted me (to maternity) and hydrated me with fluids and gave me medicine to help clear the blockage. I am still in a bit of pain but I'm sure it will get better with time. It is amazing that this little thing inside my belly is causing so many problems...already!!!

Monday, March 1, 2010


Earlier today I had my first ultrasound and yet another blood draw to check my hormone levels. Everything looked right on track and I got to see the gestational sac.

They told me at my next ultrasound that I should be able to see the fetal pole and possibly even a heartbeat!

After this weekend's events I was a bit nervous to get the results of my blood work. Until we see the heartbeat, the only way to tell that everything is going well is by my hormone levels. CNY called me right around 1:30 and informed me that my HCG went from 740 (Friday) up to 4793.6 which is a 237% increase. They told me at this point I have nothing to worry about and should try and relax until my next ultrasound which is a week from today. I am also a bit relieved as this was my last HCG draw as my levels are perfect. Everything else will now be based on ultrasound. I am so happy!!!